Swirling Thoughts

Content warning: death

Picasso’s GUERNICA reinterpreted by Arnold August

I can’t stop thinking about the photo of the drowned toddler, the Syrian child who lost his life crossing the Mediterranean and who came to rest with his cheek against the sand, his head pointing towards the gently lapping waves. I saw the photo in 2015 at the outset of the European refugee crisis and I don’t think it’s ever far from my thoughts. A few weeks ago I was compelled to draw what I could remember of the image, but I stopped myself before I got too far.

As sad and terrible as I found the picture, what was more distressing to me was that the world didn’t stop when it was published. We didn’t drop everything and fix the world. The photo came out, people saw it, business went on as usual. When I think of this, I lose hope.

In the last three months I’ve seen more images of dead and injured children than I care to count. Some, like the image of the father pressing sweets into his dead child’s hand feel poised to haunt me for the next ten years. There was another photo, though, it was of donuts. The donuts were made in a makeshift bakery in the rubble of a destroyed bakery, in the center of a flattened neighborhood. The donuts were brightly glazed and looked beautiful and delicious. The photo cheered me, briefly, then broke my heart.

Selfishly I thought, “There’s no number of donuts I can draw that would make the world feel better.” I know it’s not my burden, except that it is. There’s a scene at the climax of EVERYTHING EVERYWHERE ALL AT ONCE where Waymond has a breakdown. The world is falling apart around him and he doesn’t know why but he can’t help but feel it is all his fault. I felt that scene in the deepest part of me.

I admire Elise Gravel. She has spoken clearly and consistently about Palestine. Shelley Couvillion made a beautiful comic about a Palestinian child passing into the afterlife and meeting her mother. I’ve read beautiful poetry by Palestian authors living under occupation. I don’t feel I can add anything to their expressions of grief and hope. Or maybe I’m afraid to.

I almost drew a picture of Alan Kurdi, the drowned toddler, back in December but I put my pencil down. I think I was supposed to draw it, but I didn’t. The drawing I didn’t make has hung in the periphery of my thoughts since then. But now it’s creating eddies. Swirling images I don’t know what to do with. Israel’s attacks on Palestine continue and now, suddenly, the US is bombing Yemen. Things have gotten a lot worse very quickly. But if I’m honest, I do feel hope that a ceasefire is coming.

I drew the picture last night. I’m glad I did. It’s not a GUERNICA but it never had to be. I might revisit it, I might recycle it. It doesn’t belong on a pedestal, but all the same, it is valid. As are my feelings of despair. Denying and avoiding them is no way to go through the world, painful as it is. And I think acknowledging them, oddly enough, made space for my imagination to believe the world can be fixed.

Playing now: STORM, Godspeed You Black Emperor

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#PBwithJ: Oh, Olive!

I just had a lot of fun reading OH, OLIVE! by Lian Cho and I want to share that with you.

So, I pre-ordered this book a few months ago. I saw the cover reveal and knew I wanted it. How could I not? Olive is a kid after my own heart. Our studio floors look the same.

I will often preorder books and then forget to read them. It’s ridiculous, I know, but usually by the time the book arrives, some new shiny object has caught my eye. Or maybe, in the time it took for the book to come out, the whole world has gone to hell. But today I was reminded that this book was waiting for me and I’m so happy I was.

Not least of all because there was a print inside the package. Whaaaat?

OH, OLIVE! is a joy. I love it. The book is very smartly put together but for me 99% of the charm comes from the main character’s face.

There’s something in the art that reminds me very distinctly of Satoshi Kitamura’s work.

Some of that is in the character’s proportions, but also in how the illustrations are staged. Like Kitamura, Cho’s use of panels reads so clearly and cleanly. I envy this.

The backgrounds in those two panels reminded me a lot of another favorite creator, Taro Gomi. I couldn’t find my copy of Gomi’s COCO CAN’T WAIT, which I think has some kind of similar horizon/skyline, but here’s the cover of MY FRIENDS that shows a little of what I’m talking about.

And there’s such a beautiful simplicity in the character’s design that Cho nails. But besides that simplicity, Olive’s design is just plain funny. Maybe that’s why Olive also reminded me of these kids that British editorial cartoonist Giles would draw.

I was obsessed with “Little Giles” and now I’m obsessed with Olive.

Oh, hey, check out the copyright page. I was oh-so-happy to see the media listed here… I think for the story to work, the illustrations had to be this analog.

It’s obvious, I think, that I’m a fan of the art but I also love the story. As the story reaches its climax and I reached this point in the illustrations, I actually said “Ohhhh no…” (or maybe it was “Ohhhh damn…”).

But I won’t spoil that. You can see for yourself. Go grab OH, OLIVE! It’s worth it, with or without the art print. I wrote this post after a single reading, I’m sure there’s way more to appreciate. In fact, if you have a copy of OLIVIA by Ian Falconer (which I don’t, surprisingly), I bet that’d make for a fun side-by-side review.

In closing, I LOVE THIS FACE!!!

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Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man

Little Known Fact: Maurice Sendak wasn’t always a bearded old man with glasses living in a house adjacent to a New England woods. Indeed, he was once a young artist living in a sparsely furnished New York apartment studying the masters and making dummies out of trim scraps. True!

That’s from a 1966 Weston Woods video. You can watch the whole thing in its entirety here. It’s worth because it gives a unique view of Sendak who is usually remembered as the grumpy grandpa of picture books.

People often paint Sendak as a curmudgeon but tell me this, what curmudgeon accepts a handmade decoupaged magnetic memory board with this amount of grace?

To further prove my point, here’s a picture of Maurice Sendak goofin’ around on a pedal boat.

photo from the Francelia Butler Papers, University of Connecticut

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#PBwithJ: THESE OLIVE TREES and BÁBO

I’ve been looking forward to reading THESE OLIVE TREES by Aya Ghanameh at least since this Twitter thread about the dearth of Palestinian books in children’s publishing (the post points to this article by Nora Lester Murad on the School Library Journal website). I’ve got the book in hand now and there’s a lot I like about it, particularly how the illustrations capture the texture of risograph printing, which, if you read my post on illustration styles through the decades, you know is one of my favorites.

Ghanameh’s zine: HOME. A REFLECTION

I’m impressed, also, that the book ends on something of a hopeful note. You have the feeling that these olive trees, uprooted, bulldozed, displaced and otherwise destroyed, remain resilient and will survive as seeds. Or maybe that’s just me looking for hope.

My mind keeps going back to this short film, YEARBOOK by Bernardo Britto.

In this short, the main character is tasked with recording the entirety of human history on a single hard drive before its extinction. When the hard drive begins to run out of memory, he must decide which people and events get cut. This is a pessimistic take, and to be honest, an uncomfortable one as I offer it from the safety of my North American privilege, but I keep wondering when an author is faced with the genocide of their people, what makes it into the scant 32 pages and some hundred words that make up a picture book?

Author Astrid Kamalyan, Artsakh Armenian, tells the story of her people’s rug washing tradition in BÁBO. It’s a lovely book and I don’t think there’s a wasted line but there’s one right in the middle of the book that captures my imagination. “The hot air in the garden smells like simmering rose jam.” It feels like there’s something important in that image.

BÁBO on my own, forgive me, unwashed rug

I’m not certain what I’m writing about here. I don’t know if I can read either of these books outside the context of genocide, and I don’t know if I even should try to. At the same time, I wish I could celebrate Palestinian and Armenian storytelling for their own sakes. I want to know if there are unicorns in Palestine and dragons in Armenia. I want to know if the poetry and humor of the authors’ writing matches the landscapes of their countries. (If that sounds selfish and indulgent, do know that what I’m really asking for is a world where this kind of selfish indulgence is allowed.)

Ultimately, if this is just about me and why I’m writing this barely-about-picture-books post, I feel a need to bear witness. YEARBOOK ends with the idea that on a cosmic scale all that really matters is the here and now. The here and now, presently, is terrible and I can hardly come to terms not only with the fact that I’m holding two books by two authors who are personally affected by current genocides but there are, in fact, other ongoing genocides happening in the world (Sudanese and Uyghur, to say nothing of indigenous tribes of the Amazon). Hope is hard right now, but I’m glad these books exist and I’m happy to support these authors and to carry some small part of their traditions so that their stories, like the olive seed, may yet survive.

ps: I know the names mentioned in YEARBOOK are heavily Western-centric. If you noticed that and are looking for a broader view of the history of our world, I recommend Bill Wurtz’s HISTORY OF THE ENTIRE WORLD, I GUESS.

pps – be sure to read that When Hope Is Hard article.

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James Marshall Week Day 5: Three CREEPY Stories!!!

Today, the 13th, marks the 31st anniversary of James Marshall’s passing. And it falls on a Friday. Feels like the perfect time for a trio of UNEXPLAINED MYSTERIES.

Don’t blame me if you get goosebumps.

STORY NUMBER ONE: THE MYSTERIOUS VOICE

It was late 1999 or early 2000. My work in children’s education media was taking off but I wondered if I wouldn’t want to direct myself to picture books instead. In a rare case of taking my destiny into my own hands, I dove deep into my local public library and looked for the books that resonated most strongly with me. As it turned out, it was the Marshall early readers. This surprised me. As a kid my favorite books were by William Steig and Jose Aruego and Ariane Dewey). I remembered many early readers (of those Frog and Toad rated highly, Amelia Bedelia and Encyclopedia Brown were there, too) but I couldn’t recall reading any Marshall in school. I knew his work best from much later when I used to read MISS NELSON IS MISSING! to my nephew and niece.

Excited by this new discovery, I looked up James Marshall and found a short biography that told me he died in 1992 of a brain tumor. Something inside me said “No, he didn’t.” I’m not sure where the voice came from. I remember it as a strong gut feeling, but I didn’t do anything with it. I would periodically search “James Marshall” on google (when it became a thing), but I never learned any new information.

It wasn’t until November of 2010 that I stumbled across a blog called “Wandervogel” and found a post by author Dan Dailey where he describes coming across across the cemetery in Marathon, Texas where James Marshall is buried. He eventually meets James Marshall’s mother and sister and learns that Jim had died of AIDS. It was the first time I had confirmation of something I realized I had already known.

The spooky question: What was that voice?

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STORY NUMBER TWO: THE UBIQUITOUS FACE

There’s a character that appears in many of James Marshall’s books. It’s this guy here:

He appears often enough that I’ve always figured it must be a self-insert, a caricature of James Marshall himself. Never having seen an author photo, I decided that James Marshall must have looked like television actor, Gerald “Major Dad” McRaney (I’m a child of the eighties and I watched a *lot* of TV). It made sense to me because if this:

equaled this:

Then it stood to reason that this:

Would equal this:

Many years later I would see my first photograph of James Marshall (again, on the Wandervogel blog) and I realized I wasn’t far off.

The Inexplicable Inquiry: How did I know???

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STORY NUMBER THREE: THE TIME-TRAVELLING DONUT SALESMAN

Speaking of uncanny resemblances… look carefully at the televisions in the appliance store window.

The Confounding Conundrum: WHAT AM I DOING IN CRAZY TIMES AT DANCE CLASS????

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Okay, so probably only one of those stories is a mystery. Story 2 could be a result of Marshall and I sharing a certain visual literacy, Story 3 is a straight up con (CONfounding CONundrum, indeed) but Story 1… I dunno. It could be intuition. It most likely was. But on the eve of Spooky Season I always wonder if it was something more.

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James Marshall Week Day 4: For We Are Jolly Good Fellows

I was tagged on Twitter the other day in connection to the Harry Allard essay I wrote as part of my Marshall Fellowship. That tag was a first, in fact, (if you don’t count me retweeting myself from my alt accounts) it doesn’t seem to get a lot of attention on the bird app. Twitter does suppress external links, but even if it didn’t, I just don’t know if people are in the habit of going to blogs anymore (he says as he spends another afternoon updating this one). But heed my word, reader: if you’re not visiting blogs, you’re missing out! There is a treasure trove of Jim related materials over at the UCONN Archives and Special Collections blog.

For day four of James Marshall’s birthday week, here’s a roundup of the Marshall Fellow articles.

Sandra Horning
Kids Are Really Smart These Days
Every Word Counts!
Meet William Gray

Julie Danielson
Finding the Artist in His Art

Jerrold Connors
Harry Allard Is Missing!

Kai-Fai Steele
James Marshall the Educator

Elizabeth Barnett
Pink Soup and Pink Loafers

Eliza Kinkz
In conversation with archivist, Kristin Eshelman. d’Archive podcast episode 46

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James Marshall Week Day 3: Research Journal Pt. 2

Continued from here.

The process of researching involves looking through the digital catalogue with whatever search terms are relevant to your research. For me it was “James Marshall Miss Nelson Viola Swamp”. The database returns a list of boxes with their relevant contents. You fill out a form requesting one of these boxes (in this case #5), hand it to an archivist who retrieves it from storage and brings it to the reading room. Going into this I didn’t know if I was going to be required to wear white gloves as I went through the materials. I wasn’t, but I did find out pens are not allowed (you can only take notes in pencil). I wasn’t worried that I was going to spoil any originals, but I did feel a great sense of anticipation before opening the box. When you open it, this is what you find:

The number of materials presented to you can be overwhelming, but luckily I had an area of interest (Marshall’s collaborations with Harry Allard) to help me stay focused. I also told myself to take snack and brain breaks, I didn’t want to find myself with a massive headache halfway through my research.

Spoiler: I did, in fact, take picture of everything.

I definitely overdid it on pictures, but figuring this was a once in a lifetime situation, I wanted to be able to have as many resources available to me as I worked on my UCONN paper and Marshall’s biography (that’s the “homework” I’m referring to). Looking back, I should have traded a couple hours at the camera for the chance to get another box from the archives. In some ways they’re like boxes of chocolate, you never know what you’re going to get.

As I mentioned, the boxes are catalogued by their contents. The archivists, as they catalogue the materials, list every keyword that might be of relevance to a researcher. In this case my search for “Viola Swamp” returned Box 13 which held Marshall’s work on CINDERELLA (in some of the sketches one of the stepsisters was drawn as Viola Swamp). This wasn’t relevant to my research but the discovery was a happy accident, I gained a new appreciation for Marshall’s illustration with this diversion.

I was slow to appreciate Marshall’s illustrations. I think there’s often a crudeness to how he handles perspective and it can be hard for me to tell what is purposeful and what is accidental. Seeing the originals for CINDERELLA convinced me that his choices are deliberate. I’m coming to understand his drawings more and more.

On the other hand, his storytelling and processes as a writer are clear. I feel like I know exactly what he’s going for when he builds a story and I can almost track his choices through his manuscripts. I see some of the same in my work. Not just in how we work, but in how we see our work. I’ll never know how much alike we are, but if you’re going to compare yourself to anyone, why not one of the greats?

THE MELTED REFRIDGERATOR is a hefty (just look at the picture) autobiography by Marshall’s landlord-turned-friend, Francelia Butler. I scanned through this huge stack of papers for anything relevant to Marshall. There was a short bit that hints at Marshall’s sexuality. While known to be gay (at least to friends and colleagues), Marshall being a gay creator didn’t appear in any of the materials I looked at.

The Francelia Butler box came with a whole bunch of personal correspondences. She ran a series of “kiddie lit” lectures at the university and there were letters from some creators (Sendak) thanking her for the opportunity to speak and others (Seuss) sending their regrets that couldn’t participate. Each of these notes were handwritten and some had doodles. They were wonderful to see but it left me wondering:

Back to my research. I had almost exhausted the Miss Nelson related materials so I wanted to be sure to check out the audio and video part of the collection. In that I found a video of Marshall talking about working with Harry Allard.

This discovery wrapped up my feelings about the Marshall/Allard collaborations so I felt a bit more free to indulge myself in looking at other materials. I went to something Julie Danielson had insisted was not to be missed, the box of Marshall materials donated by Maurice Sendak. It held a very funny back and forth between the two friends where they exchanged some catty remarks about a fellow picture book creator.

It also held two THE OWL AND THE PUSSYCAT dummies which (as I clumsily attempted to write in my journal) took my breath away. That was followed by a visit with Bill Gray, Jim’s surviving partner.

I did spend some time outside the library. Besides visiting Bill, I went for a hike, went for a run, and had dinner with an aggressively friendly roommate.

It was a whirlwind of a trip and things were wrapping up quickly.

That’s the broadest view of my research trip. In all, I had 24 pages of notes and something like (no joke) 1,000 photographs. Wanting to preserve my memories as best I could, I took my last half hour of the trip to capture the moments that happened at the end of the day on Friday.

It was definitely an experience to appreciate. I’m forever grateful to Kristin Eshelman and Melissa Watterworth Batt for the opportunity. It’s worth mentioning that the library and its materials are available to researchers with or without the Fellowship. You don’t even need to make the trip in person, there’s a form for requesting digital scans of any material in the collection (it costs something, but not a lot). Still, though, there’s nothing like holding an original work by a creator you admire in your hands.

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